Wedding

1st Las Vegas, Nevada
2nd Orange, California
3rd Seoul, Korea

And this would be our third wedding and it is the one that completes.
*Special thanks to my mom and my best friend, S.

Let go.

I just came back from Korea and Japan couple days ago.
We had such a great time, although it is good to be back home.

Our wedding in Korea was great, but besides all those beautifully planned wedding moments, I was very thankful how we were able to spend lots of time with my family in Korea. At the same time, it saddens me that we are all away from my parents.

Every time I see my parents together, it breaks my heart.
Every time I think about what happened to our family early last year, it still makes me bitter, painful and resentful: The catastrophic shit that fell on us.

It has been almost a year since then. I still don’t know how to deal with it. I am not even sure if there is anything to deal with because I am afraid to ask or to know. Anyhow, my family seem to “manage” well.

On top of all these shitty psychological emotional crap I need to cope with later, there is one thing I learned, and one thing I must do.


Life simply isn’t fair.

Let go and forgive.



Being resentful will not change the past, and will not change the future either. I will never ever and ever forget what happened, but I must simply let go and forgive. Until then, I am going to have to deal with it my own way.

The Pot.

So many things are changing, yet everything is the same.

I don't hold onto familiarity and I do not rely on regularity. Couple years ago, one of my friends said that life is connecting dots: to make it into a line. In other words what events brought me here, right now, the goal was to understand that there are always many choices we can make, and the one we do make is significant to where we go: It is what we do in the moment that leads to the next moment.

I think that I understand with such clarity why I chose to live in SoCal because it had everything I "thought I wanted" and everything I really did want.

I often wonder why I am in California. What is the lesson? What was the need?

And every time I wonder, there is only one answer: The absolute truth.
That is the only and the ultimate truth that keeps me sane.


I bought these onions couple weeks ago and planted.
I prayed that it will grow and bear its fruit.
At the same time, I pray that I will do the same, too.