Real.

Lately, I have been really stressed out.

Too many people seem to have too much opinion regarding my pregnancy.
Too many things are changing and will be changing.
At the same time, I get really frustrated by little things here and there which I have no control over.

I recently started going to Yoga again. Of course, prenatal yoga.
The class goes very slow. You work your body but it is not difficult at all and honestly I don't feel like I did yoga afterwards.

I realized it is more of that. You focus on you and your baby.
You create this space for you and your baby from everything else, and by doing that, you get your own "room" to breathe.

During one and half hour, I focus on nothing.
My mind goes blank and I love it.
That time is so precious for me since I don't have to think about anything.
I become nobody, yet, I feel real and authentic regardless.

Good bye

you are my dream.
you are the embodiment of my hopes.
you are the cornerstone of my ambitions.
you are the mastermind behind the beautiful events.
you are the ice in my veins.
you are the beat of my heart.
you are the breath at the end of the sigh.
you are the crease at the end of the smile.
you are at the corner of my eyes.
you are at the center of my soul.
you are the melody in my ears.
you are the crescendo of my emotions.
you are the grit of my teeth.
you are the grip of my fist.
you are the bow of my head.
you are the gaze i hold.
you are the sight to be treasured.
you are the touch to be yearned for.
you are the secret to be divulged.
you are the thought to be cherished.
you are everything true.
you are everything genuine.
you are everything real.
you are the epitome of beauty.
you are my destiny.
you are love.

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Below is a diary that I wrote back in 2006.
It is amazing how every moment of your life you can feel it, if you have an open heart.
So yes, there is.

2006.08.15 화 16:47

다이어리 내용

웃긴소리일지도 모르겠지만,

요즘 문득문득 이런생각이 든다.

정말 그분이 계시다고..

그분이 이세상을 창조하시고 우리를 위해 희생을 하셨다고..

그리고 3일후에 다시 환생하셨다고..

그냥 우연이라고 지나칠수 없는 일들이 매일매일 일어나고있고,

그런일들이 사소한 일이던 큰일이던..

그렇게 생각하다보면 또 세상이 다르게 보이기도 한다.

조금더 사소한것들에 미소를 짓게 돼고,

고요한 밤의 세상의 소리들도 더 아름답게 들리곤 한다.

그러다보면,

내가 사랑하는사람들을 지켜주세요..

라고 두손을 모으기도 한다.

신기하고,

신비롭다.

모든것들이 자연을 넘어선 초자연적인것이라고 느끼게 됀다.

동시에 굉장히 아주 굉장히 "지금"이고 리얼하다.

Any other day

Ordinary, yet, extraordinary.
Thanking every moment of it.
I wouldn't trade it.