We had such a great time, although it is good to be back home.
Our wedding in Korea was great, but besides all those beautifully planned wedding moments, I was very thankful how we were able to spend lots of time with my family in Korea. At the same time, it saddens me that we are all away from my parents.
Every time I see my parents together, it breaks my heart.
Every time I think about what happened to our family early last year, it still makes me bitter, painful and resentful: The catastrophic shit that fell on us.
It has been almost a year since then. I still don’t know how to deal with it. I am not even sure if there is anything to deal with because I am afraid to ask or to know. Anyhow, my family seem to “manage” well.
On top of all these shitty psychological emotional crap I need to cope with later, there is one thing I learned, and one thing I must do.
Life simply isn’t fair.
Let go and forgive.
Being resentful will not change the past, and will not change the future either. I will never ever and ever forget what happened, but I must simply let go and forgive. Until then, I am going to have to deal with it my own way.
i have such a hard time with this too. i'm praying for you. and your parents. :)
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